Unspoken

I wrote this one for Tori Amos' voice and vocal styles. If you've heard "Silent All These Years" (pretty likely), "1000 Oceans" (less likely but still quite possible), and/or "China" (for the album owners), you'll have a better idea of what this sounds like. Still looking for a highly learnable Mac freeware MIDI sequencer to get these down in notes . . .



Ever since September
I've been shaky in my head
Remembering the things I thought
And never could have said
And I watched you from the sidelines
With your flowers and your gown
And you left to take your brightness
To some other sleepy town

I can't imagine what I would have said if I had known
I'd be sitting wishing for a different kind of not alone
Now I keep my silence carefully
Afraid of what a friend might see
You were never meant for me
It's better now you're gone

Thinking much too often
Of the times I'd felt the same
Owning up to innocence
Bare-shouldering the blame
As we kept our backs from turning
Like pink lilies in a line
My hope began to flicker
As yours began to shine

I can't remember everything and still it feels so wrong
That what I really wanted was so different all along
Now I'm glad the distance separates
But sometimes secrets seem too great
I saw myself a few years late
And now you're simply gone

And I try to keep my distance from the petals on the floor
I know I have the next best thing, I shouldn't ask for more
It wasn't made in heaven, nor an arbitrary pair
I'm not the next nor yet the third, I'm only hanging there

Ever since November
I've been wondering if you knew
Forgive me all my trespasses
And I'll forgive them too
It set my whole world spinning
Like the roses in the air
And I'll catch myself as needed
But I can't forget to care

I can't deny there's something that still lingers in my mind
It surfaces in pieces and it burns from time to time
You told me once and time again
You're never more than just a friend
So this is where the story ends
I'm here and now you're gone
I'm waiting still for something blue
Imperfect, yes, but it will do
I'll tell myself I don't miss you
And just keep going on
It's better now you're gone


Copyright © 2001 by Katherine Foreman.



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